Do you every wounder why things happen like they do ...... why the people you love and are closest to you either die or leave ...... taking you heart and stompping on it ...... i dont know what to do any more .... all i want is to be happy ... im sick of crying everyday ... hoping that he'll come back .... why do i have to love at all .... it just a ginat waste of time ...... if i had my way id rip my heart out and id let him take it just so everytime he looked at it he knew what he did to me .... hed know how much i really loved him ...... how much i just wanted him to come back to me .... to help love me and his little girl ... why do i have to do everything by myself .... what did i do as a fetis that was so bad that god wanted me to pay for it with everything in my life ...... it started when i was a little kid .... i was takin from my mom ..... then the closest person to me is taken and maded bed reiden until she died .... she was the person i wanted to be like ... that person that you wishgh was you parent but they werent ...... than i lose my best friend in the whole world to a drive by ...... i started high school and became a loner because everyone stabbed me in the back .... i dropped out trying to help my mom out and we get kicked out from were we live ...... im forse to meet the person that im to be with ... the person i love to death that wants nothing to do with me ....... i get pregan and have a great little girl ....... he leaves me cause he cant handle it ... im to much to deal with ....... and now i cant even be happy for the littlest moment .... everything is him .... why cant i just be happy for once .... why cant i get what i want ...... why???????????..... why do i have to be here .... what is so importent that im do to have nothing but pain in my life?????

[A]- AVAILABLE: yea but not happy about it

[B]- BIRTHDAY: july 22 1987

[C] - CRUSHING?: yea

[D] - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: mt. dew

[E] - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: myself

[F] - FAVORITE MUSIC GROUP: metal

[G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: bears

[H]- HOMETOWN: charleston sc

[I]- INSTRUMENT: drums

[J] - JUGGLE: life

[K] - KILLED SOMEONE/SOMETHING: i want to kill people

[L] - LONGEST CAR RIDE: maine and back

[M] - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: chocolate

[N] - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: alot

[O] - ONE WISH: turkey to come back.

[P] - PERSON WHO CALLED YOU LAST: turkeys mom

[Q]-QUESTION YOU ASKED TODAY:what did i do

[R] - REASON TO SMILE: aiden

[S] - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: meds by placebo

[T] - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 11:30

[U] - UNCOMFORTABLE SITUATION: tell people turkey left me

[V]- VEGETABLE(S): no

[W]- WORST HABIT: giving my heart away

[X] X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD DONE: alot

[Y] - YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL: snake

[Z]- ZODIAC SIGN: cancer

One day a little boy named Jimmy was all alone in church following what his father told him to do.... See is dad told him to pray away every sin he did that week....The boy was amazed at how bad his dad was at realizing a lie from the truth.....But the boy was praying when he heard a voice call softly to him James, James follow me my dear child .....when he went to cheak it out he heard another voice a louder more evil voice....Jimmy, Jimmy dont you want to have fun...dont you want to party...follow me follow me.....thats when the boy stopped and got down to say ...let me see your faces....the devil brought himself out....but god didnt show his self...the little boy said to the devil ...my dad said you were bad....and that i sould stay away from you and people like you.....thats when satan said do you want a bording life.....The kid answered no i want a wild life .... i want to party all the time.....and satan said then if you are ready then you can now able to join me...just say the words....and the boy replied i want to be satans child....

~~~~*the family is a story that happend for real so no stupid dumbass comments please*~~~~
On a cold january night three young girlsand their baby brother where in their home in Conway, South Carolina......It was a nice and cool night....Their parents where throwing a praty ....nothing new to the oldest daughter....She was 6.... Although she was so young she was more of a mother an a father to her siblings....their childrens ages were 3, 2, and 11mts....Now I know what you are thinking ...How can a 6year old child take care of a 11mth old ....well she did it ....mean while at the parents party they were drinking.....the father begain to fight with the mother ...so the party was ended....later on that night the poor kids were awaken by cops.....the cops told the kids that they would be in a better place come morning....the olds child asked the officer you promise where not going to a foster home again officer ....he said yes i promise... she also asked where not going to be seperated either are we....the cop then said no i promise you that will not happen.....he gave the girl and her siblings a rice crispy treat ..here enjoy this he said....the kids took it...not ten mins later the officer came back with 4 cops....they all took the kids to diffent places....a year and a half later the oldest and the second oldest were reunighted.....they were sent to there grandfathers house.....the other to kids were adopted by familys never to see each other again.....the kids whe at the grandfathers house for 6 yeas when there mother came back into their life.....she was pregnate with their second brother.....the kids were at first pissed at this ...the oldest duaghter was so pissed that the mother endedup sending her to a mental hospital for cutting.....the other daugther loved her mom and was so happy after a while....no both kids are still together with their grandfather ....the oldest is a hardcore goth ...the youngest is a prep..... they dont get along to well .....but the oldest daughter is going to move in with her mother lets hope all goes well.....

~THIS LIFE IS HORROR
~HOW DO I GO ON YOU ASK
~HOW DO I LIVE THE THE PAIN AND SHUFFERING
~THE HORROR
~THE LOST OF THE ONLY PERSON THAT TAKE YOU AS YOU
~HORROR IS THIS LIFE
~PEOPLE GET DIFFENT LIVES
~YOU GET WHAT YOU GET
~SOME HAVE GREAT LIFES OTHERS DONT
~IM THAT OTHER
~NEXT TIME YOU ARE THINKING TO YOURSELF SAYING OH MY LIFE SUX
~I SAY TO YOU HAVE YOU EVER LOST A BOTHER
~A COZIN
~AND A AUNT IN THE MATTER OF 4 DAYS...
~I HAVE I HATE THINKING BUT AS I SAID LIFE IS HORROR
~ALL THIS IS FUCKING HORROR